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9月5日 找房中发现这个,很牛:) Yes, you read correctly. I'll take half off the rent and we'll work something out for an attractive female to pretend to be my live-in girlfriend. You have your own private room and you are not required to do anything physically with me besides occasionally leaving the apartment together and grabbing a drink or a bite to eat. I am completely sane. And there is a perfectly logical reason for this which I will explain to qualified candidates. I'd prefer a picture, of course. However, I'm willing to take a description and possibly meet after talking on the phone. Again, I do not want to sleep with you. We have separate sleeping quarters. Nice apartment, convenient location and very safe neighborhood. Please be unselfish, highly trustworthy, discreet, considerate and positive. 还跟招聘似的,哈哈哈哈 9月3日 Just drop a piece here quickly
Laying on the grassland, feel refresh and comfortable After a talk, I keep thinking on something make a lot sense to me
Whether it looks like more a social problem than a relationship problem. Cause the society is changing so fast, woman's rights and ability growing so fast, and relationship between man and woman altering so fast. While the law could be changed fast to favor modern woman, the inner traditional mind might not. Man definitely wants to hold their privilege and power in a family through higher income, more conversational rights, and putting his partner into more housework. But man also notices the importance of intellectual connection with his partner and the professional function of his partner.
Instead of rethinking the original mindset problem, man rather solve the conflict simply either by compromising or adding more functions to his partner. The totally traditional ones will choose to compromise, who seems not greedy, know what they want from life, and only pay much more attention to their partners' family function. The other type, a little bit modern who want higher life quality from both psychically and mentally, but not fully-evolved ones, will choose to add more functions to their parters and turn their parter to an all-around "super something". It's like man still play their single role in an act, but woman gonna play "double" roles, (this's also why some man needs more than a woman to satisfy his functional needs, which he may also confuse and criticize himself how this happened). From woman's perspective, single function, double functions or multi-functions, all of them don't mean happiness. Single function make woman feel losing something in life, esp. man's single-functioned judgment to his partner make woman feel lower self-esteem or overlooked. Remember, women under such conditions, are not really happy and they are just sacrificing. Then coming to double or multi function, women in this level, are not happy either, cause they are overloaded or overwhelmed.
How to deal with that? Just throw the problem to woman, say you should balance your work and family. Or let man compromise, say you should know life cannot provide everything you want, you should know what you want, what's your priority and give up the others. Balance or compromise? Compromise or balance?
Either two ways have set something as a prerequisite, something unchangeable. That's man's mindset. Changing mindset is much more difficult than the technical ways above- "balance, and take or give up". The technical ways may be easy to employ and make life seems in harmony, but still not make the thing to be better, just try to sustain. Is it worthwhile to have a creative mindset to change the situation? or Do you believe that much of the meaning of life is CHANGE? Do you want to go beyond traditional thinking, or fall into tradition which doesn't mean bad (may just unadapt to the ever-changing things around us)? While change needs time and patience. Do we have enough time to be patient, or put it that way, to a woman, are you bold enough when facing time elapse? It's the mindset that need to be change for woman.
Just some incompletely thinking, open to discuss. Does man feel competition everywhere, even with his loved woman? Is it a healthy and functional mechanism between genders, or not? (I haven't started my work now, though, I think more and more on women issue and on gender equity.)
8月31日 我一直看好他们
他们仿佛是我眼中的金童玉女,天作之合
其间的几次传闻分手让我为之惋惜
Anyway,终于结婚啦!
这是他们的结婚照,以后我的也这标准了:)
我喜欢袁泉,因为她的人像她的名字一样,如汩汩清泉,这是种难能可贵的气质
反之,我的审美所不能接受的,或者说定义为让我“哇哇吐”的,就是“俗艳”,或许是漂亮的,但远不是美的,那份漂亮也就充其量了“艳”,气质的单薄和干瘪以及装束的跟风再附送个“俗” 一个人的装束可以是变幻的,但气质是统一的,俗艳是小器的(不是小气),袁泉是大器的
夏雨,是帅的,他看起来像个男人
他说,他在向着承担责任有担当的方向完美自己,我对帅的judgment是很open的,大眼睛的容易漂亮,小眼睛的容易帅:)
一个33,一个32,10年的漫漫长路,很幸福...... 8月30日 昨天谁说的foreign policy给出的专业排名AU骑到GW上了,怎么事实上木有变啊... 全球国关硕士排名 1. Georgetown University 2. Johns Hopkins University 3. Harvard University 4. Tufts University 5. Columbia University 6. Princeton University 7. London School of Economics 8. George Washington University 9. American University 10. Oxford University 11. University of Chicago 12. Yale University 13. Syracuse University 14. Carleton University 15. Stanford University 16. Cambridge University 17. Kings College London 18. University of California, San Diego 19. MIT 20. University of Wales,Aberystwyth 21. University of Denver 22. University of California, Berkeley 23. New York University 24. University of Pittsburgh 25. University of Kentucky 8月25日 七夕 女心理师 Dalai Lama visit AU 针对最后一个,孙太一同学告诉门票要500$,看来想扔鸡蛋和番茄也得有钱才能扔hehehehe
No Questions Pls 8月23日 An American Model in Paris, Showing the Collections Is Trial by FatigueBy Lee Wohlfert-Wihlborg Under the clear plastic tent in the garden of Paris' Château de Maisons Laffitte, strains of Wagner's Tannhäuser soar through the air and brightly colored fireworks burst overhead. Swathed in gold lamé, an ethereal creature glides down the staircase, shoulders swaying, hips rolling, almond eyes at once distant and alluring. Rising to their feet, more than 1,000 onlookers—fashion editors, department-store buyers and well-heeled private customers—burst into applause, saluting the silken creature before them as much as the designer Kenzo, who has orchestrated the showing.
At 30, or thereabouts, Gloria Burgess is one of the world's top runway models, that particular breed of mannequin (unlike Cheryl Tiegs or Lauren Hutton) whose forte is strutting live down a designer's stage, displaying high-priced creations. During showings of the Paris collections, which run for a week four times a year, Gloria works as many as 25 shows, modeling for a gilt-edged roster of designers such as Kenzo, Yves Saint Laurent and Karl Lagerfeld. After the Kenzo show, the capper to this Paris season, she will strip off the gold gown, wolf down a sandwich and grab a bus home, there to steal a scant five hours before rising to catch an early plane to Brussels—or Athens—for another show there.
During the whirlwind days and weeks of back-to-back shows that constitute the "seasons" in the world's fashion capitals, Gloria is in high gear almost constantly. "There is so much nervous energy that some nights I can't sleep," she wails. "I have nightmares about a man standing outside my window holding a dress." But one of Gloria's talents is masking fatigue. The next day, when she strides down the runway, only she will know that she has blisters on her heels, a pulled muscle in her thigh and a lingering case of the sniffles.
Yet it is more than professional stoicism, exotic good looks and her lanky 5'10", 114-pound body that brings her up to $20,000 for a single week's work; what sets Burgess apart are her grace and experience. "There are many beautiful women, but not many have the right character," says Tokyo designer Issey Miyake, who discovered her. "She knows how to move, and she can communicate my clothes. She is the best—clearly one of the top five models in the world."
All of this comes as a pleasant surprise to Gloria, who never wanted to be a model at all. As a teenager in Washington, D.C., where her father was an electric company supervisor and her mother a homemaker, she was offended by suggestions that she ought to try modeling because she felt people were implying she couldn't do anything else. Determined to demonstrate otherwise, she studied political science for a year in Islamabad, Pakistan, then headed home to Washington to become a dancer. Eventually, she landed a job jazz dancing at a Tokyo supper club, where Miyake spotted her in 1974. She reluctantly agreed to model in one of his shows, but, humiliated when a dress slipped off her shoulder baring one of her breasts, she quit modeling and went back to the U.S.
But Miyake won in the end. Gloria returned to Tokyo a year later and got work with top designers immediately. Within a year she was headed for Paris. So glowing was her reputation that she landed two jobs within hours of landing at De Gaulle airport, before her clients had even caught sight of her. When she was inadvertently an hour late for an Emanuel Ungaro show, the prestigious designer held the curtain for her, greeting her with fluttery cries of "Gloria in excelsis deo."
Backstage, though, the glamour wears thin. Conditions are as hectic as in a short-order kitchen, with clothing racks, makeup tables, rows of shoes and boxes of accessories all jammed together with no room to spare. Picking her way through the maze, Gloria settles down before the makeup mirrors, where two hairdressers yank her hair into one exotic do or another and a cosmetician plies his art to conceal a catastrophe: three pimples on Gloria's cheek. After a wardrobe mistress shoehorns the model's size-10 feet into size-eight shoes ("It's a hazard of the trade," says Burgess), Gloria is ready to make her appearance. The designer gives her a final, frenzied once-over, then she is out on the runway looking—suddenly—as cool and sexy as if she has stepped from a garden.
To preserve that look of imperturbable freshness, Gloria tries to stick to a regimen. During the exhausting days of the Paris collections, she rises at 6 a.m. in her small studio apartment and eases into an hour of exercise, yoga, meditation and prayer—"the hour that keeps me sane," she says. After bathing, she downs a quick breakfast. She prefers a concoction of wheat germ, oatmeal, yogurt, fresh fruit and milk, but if she is rushed, she says, she simply gulps down two raw eggs and goes on her way. Throwing on a four-year-old pair of black leather pants and a sweater—a roomy one, so she won't muss her hair or the carefully applied eye makeup and skin base—she heads out the door for a withering 12-hour day of fittings and walk-ons. By 9 p.m. she is searching wearily for a cab in the rain, then heading home for a few precious moments alone. She brews herself some lentil soup, reads a little Macbeth, works on her knitting, sets up her next day's schedule during an hour on the phone with her agent, then washes and dries her hair. By 1 a.m. she is back in bed, ready to get up tomorrow and do it again.
Despite the furious pace and the pressure, for Gloria the compensations are obvious. She has been able to buy a $160,000 three-bedroom house in Washington, D.C., as well as a sumptuous wardrobe at discount. And since her services are called for only eight months a year, her leisure time is substantial. Last year she spent six weeks in India with a modeling pal, and between seasons in Paris she swims, writes songs, plays guitar, practices palmistry and goes to church—things she rarely can do when she's working. She has even managed to find a steady boyfriend, whose identity she will not reveal. "It's hard to be a model and still have a normal personal life, but it is done," she insists. As for the future, Gloria believes she has 10 more years of modeling left and refuses to accept the persistent rumor in the fashion business that nonwhite models have lost their cachet. "I don't think," she says dryly, "that skin color should go out of fashion." In her case, at least, the evidence is all on her side. To the designers who sing Gloria's praises, nothing could be more basic than black.
8月22日 否则,never 或者这是个恒等式 爱=付出=珍惜=爱
想爱就付出,不计结果的付出,自己付出了,就自然学会了珍惜,或许珍惜的是自己付出的感情,当付出多到自己无法控制和无可挽回的地步的时候,就爱了
爱了以后是盲目的,但想爱谁是理智的 最喜欢如果爱里金城武说的一句话,我爱上了个我鄙视的人,所以我连自己一起鄙视
重读小王子 8月21日 For recreation:)
Sep. 7(M) Labor Day
means a 4-day holiday from Sep. 4 to Sep. 7
*Oct. 16 (F) Fall Break
means a 3-day holiday from Oct. 16 to Oct. 18
Nov. 24- Nov. 29 Thanksgiving Holiday
means a 6-day holiday but close to the final
Dec. 14 Winter vacation begin
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*Footnote: Yesterday after having a dinner with a couple, the latest Fall Break outing was born in my mind:)
Shall we drive to Shenandoah National Park, Blue Ridge Mountains, Virginia? This is a hiking place with high reputation, at least high reputation from my landlord and school hiking club:)
Imagin~ drive along the Skyline Drive~
Pre-requisition: if go with the couple, find a guy for myself; otherwise, I go mad~ hahaha 8月5日
我一直这样告诫自己: 1. 谁为谁心痛,谁把谁当真。 2. 若爱,请深爱。放弃,请彻底。等待,本身就是一个错误。 3. 看的开一点,伤的就会少一点。 4. 许多事情,总是在经历以后才会懂得,一如感情:错过了,遗憾了,才知道其实生活并不需要这么多无谓的执著。 5. 秋天,残忍的季节,成熟不成熟的都要一同收割。一切都会在秋冬交替的刹那间随风而逝,唯有那一泓鲜亮山溪般的记忆永远在我心中哗哗流动... 6. 珍惜手边的幸福,不要等到失去以后才悔不当初,也许,你的一生也就只有那么一个人会真正用心在你身上。 7. 人生就像一列车,车上总有形形色色的人穿梭往来。你也可能会在车上遇到很多你以为有缘分的人,但是车也会有停下来的时候,总会有人从人生这列车上上下下,当你下去的时候你挥挥手,一转身你能记住的只有回家的路。 8. 有的人你看了一辈子,却忽视了一辈子。有的人你看了一眼,却影响到你的一生。有的人热情的为你而快乐,却被你冷落。有的人让你拥有短暂的开心,却得到你思绪的连锁。有的人一厢情愿了N年,却被你拒绝了N年。 9. 不要欠朋友太多东西,因为你可能永远都没有机会还他。
10. 曾经青涩的感受,曾经单纯的表达, 曾经真诚的体会,曾经无法割舍的留恋…… 正在经历的幸福,正在憧憬的美好, 正在成长的兴奋与惶恐……走过的年轻,渐渐地长大 7月29日 这是一首怎样的歌
什么是谎言
什么是真爱
什么是把柄
什么是伤害
去和能带给你最大幸福的人在一起吧
去娶你最想娶的女孩
去嫁那个最想娶你的男孩
因为爱
所以放爱一条生路
N.Y. 7月15日
He is just not that into you
ANA的航班上看了两遍,无字幕的还是很锻炼听力的
GiGi是个爱自作多情的女孩儿
她再一次接收错了爱的讯号,以为Alex喜欢她,在被Alex冷嘲热讽了后
GiGi哭着说了如下的话
I may dissect each little thing and put myself out there so much, but at least that means that I still care.
Oh! You’ve think you won because women are expendable to you.
You may not get hurt or make an ass of yourself that way, but you don’t fall in love that way either.
You have not won. You’re alone.
I may do a lot of stupid shit but I’m still a lot closer to love than you are.
GiGi才是那个真正自信的女孩,她大无畏的张开双臂去拥抱爱,即使无数次受挫,但她closer to love
不要因为别人的“斗智斗勇”而输掉了自己对爱的信念
如果哪一天我如此不堪的对待爱情了,那么我会指着镜子里的自己说“你,是个懦夫”
像个傻子一样去爱吧,像阿甘,像三顺,像我
因为输了什么也不能输了最真实的自己
要爱就要承担和快乐等值的痛苦,只攫取快乐,不承担痛苦,那感情是轻浮的,只有痛苦没有快乐,那感情又是沉重的
勇敢的去看痛苦背后的东西,去敲幸福的门吧
"这个时代更需要一点自欺欺人,告诉我们自己他其实很爱你,叫你放心投入地去对待一个人,没有怀疑没有疑问揣测跟试探
“拼命奔跑,华丽跌倒”在爱情里,也请勇敢地、坚定地、拼命奔跑吧,然后,即使跌掉,你也可以说,自己是华丽的
也许所谓的happy ending并没有包括要给你一个perfect guy,也许所谓的幸福结局,就是抱着永不放弃的希望,继续前行"
7月11日
东京铁塔我来去
会呼吸的痛,不是我
寻找《东京铁塔》下非比寻常的爱的火花 7月4日 现在space里放的是一只绵羊的歌
这绵羊叫曾轶可,今年快女中最争议的一个
跟当年的春哥有一拼
我一共就看过两次,第一次跟我姐看的时候我们俩恨的牙痒痒
一听这绵羊唱歌,就想找个玩游戏机那个锤子,小怪物一露头就给她敲回去
后来搜视频发现这绵羊不在台上唱的时候好的多
因为她写的歌确实还可以,虽然归结起来都是一个味儿的
我这的确是看恐怖片的心理
有恨的喜欢才是真喜欢 6月29日 “献给那个从你身边溜走的人”
“自私的人都希望身边有这样的人,陪着你,却又不是爱情,也不是友情,总是希望和某些人保持着暧昧不清的关系,好像随时回头就可以看到他在身边,随时可以在需要的时候抓住一根救命稻草,或者是为了证明自己,或者只是让自己过得快乐,生活本来就不容易。”
但现实中的你我,你敢说你没有过刘荣的自私和虚荣,没有过陈文脑子不好使时的迷恋吗?
如果能从感情的泥沼中超脱出来,谁的也不欠,谁也别欠我
溜走的人说,要么好好活着,要么赶紧去死:)
6月22日
双子座女子像一个万花筒,一会儿变一个花样,你似乎永远弄不清她真正的形状。有人说一个女人欣赏或吸引的男人,总会有一定的典型。但对于双子座的女子来说可就不一定了。由于她双重,甚至多重的个性,她所欣赏的、吸引的男性,可就是各种类型都有了!
这么听起来,你的处境好象有点四面楚歌的样子!不过你应该能够了解,其它的男人也跟你一样很难抵抗她的魅力。凭良心说,双子座的女子实在很有趣,她可以像个小男生一样,陪你上山下海的疯狂玩乐;也可以正经八百的跟你聊天文地理!当然,她更会像个小公主一样跟你花前月下温柔缠绵。她是那么的充满着乐趣和变化!只可惜她对你的态度,也是变化多端,难以捉摸。你以乎很难理解,为什么昨天才令她痴迷的优点,今天竟成了被她嗤之以鼻的缺点。先不要伤心,也不要生气!你应该先冷静下来,认真的了解一下这个让你开心又叫好你烦心的小精灵。
双子座的女子有着丰富无比的想象力,而在现实的生活中,爱情似乎是让她发挥想象力的最佳园地,她几乎可以在每一个爱情故事中,成功的扮演着不同的角色。因此很多人批评双子座的女子把爱情当成游戏。对于一些年纪很轻的双子座女孩来说,游戏的成分多少是有那么一些的,但是请你务必相信,在每一个双子座女子的心里,都有着对于爱情天长地久的渴望。但是她们的多重个性,总是让她在欣赏你某些优点的同时,又在挑剔你可能有的缺点。比方说,她很可能在赞美你的艺术天份的同时,又批抨你太过软弱!这样反复的情绪下,最困扰的人并不是你,而是她自己。因为双子座的女子通常都会独自处理自己的心情,你顶多只会觉得她忽冷忽热而已。
跟一个双子座的女子相处,唯一避免自己受伤,又能与她相处融洽的方式,就是自己不断的变。多变的生活和气氛会让她生趣盎然,更会保持她对你的热爱。你可以尽情的发挥自己多样的才华,不必担心她会无法适应,双子座的女子不会是个黏人的橡皮糖。不过,不要冷落她太久,寂寞的等待,不是个双子座女子容易忍受的事,否则,她忘记你的速度,肯定会让你心碎。
我刚才说过了,双子座女性的善变会随着年龄的成长日趋稳定。尤其是当她答应与你携手共度此生之后,聪明的她,会很理性的要求自己做一个称职的妻子。你应该相信她的反应灵活,适应性绝佳,办事效率极高,扮演妻子的角色是难不倒她的。除非你非要严格地要求她作个传统的家庭主妇。否则你一定会庆幸自己娶了个可爱又多变的娇妻。
你不会有一个整天板着脸,抱怨家用钱不够的黄脸婆。相反地,当你烦恼钱赚得太少的时侯,她可能会帮你想一大堆赚外快的点子。你可能那天下班回家的时侯,发现她把家里所有的家俱都重新安置的焕然一新。也可能打开门之后发现她一个人沮丧的躲在墙角,渴望你给她一个浪漫的拥抱。当你们邀请朋友到家里作客的时侯,她总会成为一个俐落又大方的女主人,给大家制造愉快的气氛。你不要太限制她的自由,当然她也不会过分的限制你。不要在她兴致冲冲告诉你她的新计划时,表现得漠不关心。她可能今天满脸甜蜜的告诉你,她觉得自己是全世界最幸褔的小女人,明天又忧伤的告诉你,她很担心你们之间爱的感觉已经不再了。这时侯,你需要的是一点幽默感。你不妨跟她说:「真的吗?那真是太糟糕了,妳是不是能给我一个机会,让我再追你一次呢?」俏皮而机智的言语,是永远讨双子座女子喜欢的,她本身就是一个极具表达爱情技巧的精灵,若是碰上了一块木头,岂不是太扫兴了吗?
请你记得,时时牵牢她的手,随着她变化的节奏,你会发现,生活就是一个万花筒,五彩缤纷,刺激有趣。 6月13日 想起一篇文章是讲乐观主义者和悲观主义者的
乐观主义者和悲观主义者都可以成功,但方法是不一样的
乐观主义者通过大无畏般的自信勇于尝试,不怕犯错不怕失败,越挫越勇来成功的
悲观主义者通过三思后行,因为些许自卑惧怕失败而周密安排,确保万无一失来成功的
我是典型的乐观主义者,我觉得犯错和失败是必须的
我是典型的“不听人劝,吃不饱饭”型,我骨子里是个推崇“小马过河”的经历主义者(当然我没有失败癖好)
我觉得靠别人成功经验堆砌起来的看似是自己的成功,其实跟自己有什么关系,一辈子有什么劲
那和验证别人的实验有什么区别
这和台上的木偶有什么区别
当然这个问题又回到了什么是成功,如何定义成功
可这是正确的思维方式吗?
如果不站在巨人的肩膀上,估计我也进化不到今天这地步,估计还在哪儿的水坑里当鱼呢
犯错,要看这错有多大,改错,要看改了还能挽回结局否,责任,我还不敢说我懂
不会乐于一股脑犯错了,说明我心理年龄真27了吗(测试说我成熟度61%真让人开心,说老化度25%真让人伤心)
我开始思考这个问题了,就说明我原来的立场已经开始不稳固了
我一头热的乐观开始结合悲观了(悲观这里不是贬义)
我上中学的时候,总是会害怕自己固有的立场不稳固而远离那些会促我改变的东西,我回避
现在,我坚持自我,我又反叛自我
发现学文科是好的,跟大学时做题的确定答案更接近于人生的二律背反
后记:写完了看了一遍觉得思维混乱
提炼outline如下
两种人的成功-->
乐观主义者--冲锋陷阵,犯错失败,自己经历
悲观主义者--避免犯错失败,借助成功经验,三思后行
自定义成功偏向前者
继而承认犯错失败是好的
转而反对自己,犯多少错,多严重的错?
继而转向避免犯错-->悲观主义者
你呢,按以上定义你是乐观主义者还是悲观主义者?你们有什么opinion?
6月11日 纷至沓来的给我的“生日快乐”
和
我吝啬发出的一个“生日快乐”
我不禁想
很多年后,你还会记得跟我说,生日快乐吗,每一个
吝啬
说明没有忘记
或许是不想把事情搞复杂了
我们喜欢彼此,我们伤害彼此,我们重新思考,我们较劲希望对方能多改变一点,可事实上却是我们试图改变自己一点点又一点点,我们累了我们停下来休息缓缓,我们心里也都放不下彼此,我们重新上路,我们喜欢彼此,伤害彼此,我们重新思考,我们再思考,再改变再疲惫再休息再上路,这个轮回的周期是渐缩的,因为我们越来越像
你和多少个人经历过这样的轮回?
没有,说明没有真的想把另一个生命融到你的生命里,不会有排异的痛
一个,第一次停下来就再也不愿走了,那你们的一时喜欢也就只有那么长,缺乏一些基本的人生认同和生活理想上的乐趣,当然或许是时间+强个性的作用结果
两个至有限个
无限个,Jennifer Aniston离婚感言中提及的理想
如果有这样一个打对手戏的人,和你互动一起成熟,那便是好的伴侣
爱到底有多长,每一次的疲惫和休息都有可能是句号,而能起死回生的促你继续向前走的,就是那命悬一线的“放不下”
我一直认为爱是会被消磨的,因为不曾感觉到它是一个时时自我翻新的东西
但是,钱小样的话其实很在理,“如果爱都禁不住消磨,那还有什么禁得住?”
事业是需要理想的,生活和感情也是需要理想的,以上这个理想会辛苦一些,但会是厚重有质感的一生
因为它的意义归结为,自我完善和成长
这个轮回中会不断有新问题出现,无法一劳永逸,我们学会接受不完美,学会宽容和原谅,学会耐心,学会尊重别人的想法和方式,学会信任,学会亲密关系中的独立和空间,学会该妥协的妥协,该坚持的坚持
一生,任何事的源头都是爱,生命,事业,生活,家庭,感情
一生,任何事的结果都是让我们成长和成熟
这是我们唯一能得到和带走的
6月1日 小潘呀,不要嫉妒的跳脚哦
我们聚了,小范围的
居然没用我组织,这次Joey是好同志
四个男生和我(主要是Ginny和Bonnie都有事)
哦,天啊~比我想象的还要开心无数
工体西路的糖果唱歌,给你录了我们的《死了都要爱》(请向Joey索要,即日发给你:)
没痛快(咱们通常都很难一次尽兴哈)
老郑开车拉着我,Joey,Alex,Steven去了后海
五月的北京傍晚那是晚风徐徐
我们就~荡起双桨了
银锭桥下的堵船
前海的中央荡漾着
北京也只有五月的晚上如此的惬意
吹着“海风”,和男人们聊男人,就像站在火星上看火星
Joey说他们几个当晚是绝对的“知心哥哥”(哈哈我天啊,最大的都比我小半年呢)
但他们也的确是相对成熟的,20以后成熟便是一个与年龄这个数字无关的定义了,与经历和付出成度成正比
大家在河中央
暂时的离岸让大家掏心掏肺起来
各位男士说了男人的真实想法
让我如窥视了万花筒一般
我们有了原因剖析,有了可行性方案
老郑驾船返航后,众人依然觉得没尽兴,嘻嘻
前往荷花市场starbuck喝东西
却告知没有冰了,只剩热饮了(却成就了我们广场上的群众舞蹈)
我们出来正遇广大人民群众们“蹦恰恰”
像咱们年轻时那么热情与冲动
必然加入其中呀
我和Joey,Alex和Steven俩人一伍(他们俩在队尾更像扭秧歌的:)
长龙舞结束后,以一群老外为核心的热舞开始,我和Steven挤到中间hoho
再再后来,和人民大众围圈踢毽子(我们可都是拖鞋上阵啊,直到把所有人都踢跑了为止,还落个键子最后哈哈)
在我的敦促下,这个时候终于有照片为证了(请继续向Joey和老郑索要)
举着毽子一路回到了那个M,Steven还记得你临走前咱们也来过
我们几乎坐在相同的位子上,S同学居然还记得上次我穿的是皮衣,你穿的是件红风衣
我们临散之前“冲动”的规划了新活动---去野营
老郑开车,咱们去inner mongolia,Alex和Joey超顶超积极此次outing
我们保留了每次月会散的时候的好传统
几个人围一圈站在那说啊说,说不完啊,不过这次是从学校的楼前转移到了大街上,这次的结束语是Alex主导的创业话题
小潘同学我已汇报完毕
你给他们发个咱们forum的地址吧,他们都跃跃欲试啦,会把照片也放上去滴
我又有个想法了
如果不能真的和好朋友住在loft里,我们就改进创意个on-line loft吧,比xiaonei的大众口味in一些,品味一些hoho
最后在我space中附送儿童节歌曲一首,我现在天天哼唧的~~
喜羊羊~懒羊羊~美羊羊~~~
5月27日 昨天
地铁站里软软的拥抱
路上
你说“我就是心疼你把心都揉碎了”
见面
你从容的从包里掏出《小团圆》送给我
我惊讶也不惊讶
你会真的记得我说过的话
你会真的心疼“我的心疼”
你真的会让我很感动
07年我生日时你邮给我一封信和一条裙子
让我趴在宿舍床上哭了半个小时
08年我去斯里兰卡前的最后一个晚上
你解下了“你的他”送你的护身项链带在我脖子上
勒令我2个月后连人带项链一起完整回来
那天晚上瑟瑟寒风中
你掉眼泪了还骂我疯了跑那鬼地方干嘛
09年我们...
大蜜啊大蜜
娇蕊经过一场爱恋成长为坚强的女人
或许像这朵红玫瑰说的
年轻时无论做什么碰到的都是男人,老一点就发现除了男人还有点别的
等我们有钱了
我们一起住loft吧!
5月17日
每年的4,5月仿佛我都注定要经历些什么,去年是恐怖主义和战乱,今天是疫情,虽然状况五花八门,不变的是,我一直都在经历着,不变的是我一直记录着。
5.14第一天
穿着够装进两个我都大的病号服(我真是不明白干嘛做那么大?衣服能装两个我,裤子更恐怖,能装仨,裤腰最恐怖,能放我四个腰),坐在床上,抱着和我相依为命的本,这就将是我这七天每天的写照吗?我不知道,但我想应该是差不多的。因为没有网络,也没有sim卡,所以我真的是和外面的那个世界断了联系,好在骨子里我是个习惯孤独也能欢喜与孤独,与己为伍的人。我想如果有网我继续做些关于biochar的research或是看些专业的东西可以想问题,这七天其实和平常是差不多的,我想也和现在在美国的各位同志们也是差不多的吧,其实不论是你坐在office里做research类的实习,还是坐在实验室里给boss干活,或是图书馆里,哪怕窝在家里啃书憋paper,也都是抱着个电脑不自由的状态或者说是专注于一件事+放弃了乱跑做别的事情的自由,那么我,现在便可以理解我的状态是:专注于一件事+被剥夺乱跑做别的事情的自由,客观上说结果是一样的,主观上说因为重点在专注于一件事所以是放弃还是剥夺自由也可以忽略不计了。自由本就是个相对的东西,你相对的看它也就好,我在这七天如果有这件或几件专注的事情就可以抵减掉所谓的自由损失了。觉得在短时间之内,如果没有书和网络的情况下,思想还是足够可以和自己做伴的。
昨晚从我的身上采了去做病毒比对的所有样本:咽部的试样(这个是容易让人干呕),尿和血,医生说CDC会连夜分析和比对的,有结果后会第一时间通知我。病床的右上方有个通话的设备,通过这个设备我接受东城CDC的流调,时时和医生还有护士保持通话,不过总是会被问“没什么事吧,在病房吧诸如此类的问题”比较anoying。我有任何需要都可以提出来,不过我突然发现我成了个无欲无求的人,每当医生和护士例行问我有什么要求时,我都一时语塞完全想不出,我从进来以后只要求过两件事情,一张手机sim卡,我能否无线上网。昨天晚上护士问我今天一日三餐都想吃什么,说我可以随便点,我不知所措,没有范围太多的选择和没有选择是一样尴尬的,我很久没点过中餐了,最后一次吃正经的中餐还是在NY的时代广场吃的“成都印象”,所以我说我能点宫保鸡丁吗,哈哈哈,不许笑,我对吃食现在完全没有欲望,好不容易挤出了一天的4个菜,我只是担心好不容易在美国减下的肥,这七天这样困在一个房子里不停的一日三餐好吃好喝会我减下的那微薄的几斤会毫不留情的给我添回去的!我想我唯一能做的就是多思考,多想想问题,多用脑减肥,这估计会比我在屋里上窜下跳好使的多J
从昨天到现在,几乎我遇到的每一个人都是很善意很nice,记录一些和我相关的人,这些人是我如果顺利回家就遇不到的。
最温暖的女孩:机场边防检疫的一个25岁的女孩,在机场她一直跟着我,从最初的测体温到最后看我上120的急救车,这女孩我很喜欢,居然是人大学金融的,做公务员选择边防检疫我想她应该是觉得这个蛮有意义,她负责和市里还有局里联系请示,来来回回n个电话,从我的记录片里也能看到,从测出体温稍高到最后送院之间还是有很长时间的,中间有一半是“上面”用来讨论到底是送不送隔离,是送宾馆隔离还是地坛医院隔离,当然值此风口浪尖时刻鉴于我的状况,女孩告知我最终某几个处长讨论后决定来最厉害的那一种,直接地坛医院伺候。
最对路的机场医生:我也很喜欢,有北京医生的范儿,接触起来那叫人舒坦,哈哈,我们最后扯的不着边际,他超搞笑,一直认定我很牛,还开玩笑说其实得了流感也没事,这个致死率超低,但要是北京第一例那温家宝一定来看我了,到时一下成名人了,我说…呃~好吧~我又少奋斗好几年是吧哈哈…然后他看见桌上有根长头发,捏起来跟我说,你看你烧的都掉头发了:D。医生和那检疫女孩好像都已经一天一夜没睡觉了,他们貌似一个班就是24小时,额滴神还是很累地,况且说截至到我,今天已经送了10个到地坛,照一个人就要折腾2,3个钟头来算一天就被填的满满的。
最铁面的120:嗯…120急救车上副驾的那个人我最不喜欢,因为他对我一直很冷面,我一直保持微笑对所有的人,对每一个跟我有过接触的人最后都会说一声谢谢和辛苦了,因为面对你的笑别人是不会不笑的,唯独这小伙子例外,虽然防护服和大眼镜大口罩已经让整张脸只剩面部上1/3能示人,但能感觉到他冷冷的整张脸,也许是一天送了10个烦的吧(据说很折腾,每个都要单独送,送完一个后要全部消毒)~其实吧我不爽的是,他让我自己搬箱子,救护车后面那么高,我的箱子向来都让我塞的跟千斤顶一个分量,他说,你自己搬吧,我不能碰你,也不能碰你的东西,他太邪乎了,那刚才跟我来来回回的女孩接了我多少东西,那医生抓着我的手测心跳,人家什么都没穿就带个口罩。不过我有生以来第一次正经坐120急救中心的车还是闪着灯的,还是前面两个人还是“全副武装荷枪实弹”的感觉,我坐在后面的担架上,透过玻璃看司机和副驾,觉得很像外来物种入侵和生化危机一类电影里的情节。我又一路被从停机坪拉到了五环外的地坛医院。
最“那个”的检疫小领导:特“那个”,就是无法具体一言以蔽之的代替说法,我说了你就知道他挺“那个”了。在机场,我跟医生说我想上个厕所,然后医生说出门转弯机场大厅里就有,我出门,这小领导在,我说要上厕所,他立刻跟远处一姑娘喊“你过来”然后拿手从我这一划拉说“跟着”~切~还怕我跑了不成,然后这女孩陪我上厕所的路上,我问女孩“你们领导?”女孩跟我说“你甭理他,他有病”,女孩绝对的京片子:)这种小领导一点也没有上面医生那种认真对待却又不失轻松大气的风范,也就是个拿个鸡毛当令箭,给个棒槌就认针的小角色,切,多大的事儿啊~最后我出来准备从机场大厅旁门出来到停机坪,上120,已经有另一国际航班到港,人们排队等候检查,他抬手跟我说“望你早日康复~”我笑了笑,心想“望你也是”。
最“谨慎”的问题:从120下车一刹那,外面已经有人在等我了,上来先问,你是中国人吗?我说“嗯”。接着又问,“是持中国护照的中国人吗?”我说“对”。再问,“是会说中文的中国人吗?”我彻底雷了,我想我应该给她来段单口相声,她就没问题了
最“晕”的回答:很久没被问过“民族”这问题了,填的各种单子上也没涉及以致在医院里,医生问我“民族是汉族吧?”我接过来就“嗯”,2秒钟后反应过来不对“我是满族”,我这还没怎么烧呢,就忘本了
5.15第二天 如果只有思想可以做伴
病房里只有电视,本不想打开它,但在没有网络没有电话的情况下,只能顺手打开它,plus我的X61本本还是新的,里面还是干干净净的,只有近期一些paper,连下的pdf的text都少,即使想细细读些paper都有限。 我开始变得很抗拒电视这东西,不知道这和某人很少看电视是不是一个理由,因为我觉得这东西及其蚕食人的思想,我现在是宁愿看文字的东西,因为明显感觉到在处理文字的过程中脑是受到刺激而有思考的活性的,而在接受电视的所谓的information flow时,尤其是母语节目时,脑根本来不及处理,便第一时间全盘接受了,像海绵吸水一样,这十分可怕(因为是母语,不能刺激脑部分析抽象事物的区域-我认为)。但是在看美国看电视的时候,状况就会相对好些,因为非母语的输入,脑需要保持紧张,竭力全部听懂和理解的过程已经是第一遍处理抽象信息了,可惜这连cctv9都没有…啊!我突然想起来我随身带了我的bible,sex and the city,去年临走前西单刻的无字幕版的,一直陪我到处走,生活太美好了,哈哈哈哈:)
5.16 第三天 如果还有音乐可以做伴
今天好热闹,看见了所谓的“病友”,还有国际友人hoho,大家貌似被转移到了一疙瘩,隔着玻璃可以看到来来往往的穿着防护服的医生护士,还有像我一样拉着箱子带着口罩转移的“病友”。刚刚一貌似比较帅的(只能看到眼睛)男医生进来我的房间问我,从哪个疫区过来的?我说美国。他又问,告诉你多久可以离开了吗?我说没有。医生说现在所有人的检查都是阴性的,哈哈~clear!
医生走了以后我突然想唱歌,就开始了病房个唱会hoho,从《后来》开始唱,了解我的都知道,这是我的开嗓曲目,就跟Joey的《小镇姑娘》或者《如果爱》似的,然后唱《哭砂》《遇见》《想你的365天》,然后越唱越高兴,开始唱韩红的《那片海》顺子的《回家》,最后happy呀那个,唱了猫的《memorial》还有《time to say goodbye》,唱的时候还想起了圣诞节在LV的威尼斯人里,我和Luna跟划贡多拉的大叔飙《桑塔露琪亚》,觉得病房里的混响效果还真不错哈,唱的时候真的回到了那一路的行程,一路上一直哼着《memorial》
自己给自己唱歌,屋里上窜下跳,外加把病床的头摇的立起来只为方便给脚抹指甲油~如果屋里有摄像头(打电话给老妈时她说病房里不都有摄像头嘛)的话,我的恶劣行径会被确诊为精神病了
新的屋子里的电视是没有信号滴,绝了,这回是彻底没联系了~
5.17 第四天 被告知要回家了啥也没记住
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